Gloves up!

Battles on the field are like boxing rings when it comes to the spiritual things and you are dealing with just you. It's you in a ring with Satan. And he's throwing all his fiery darts while we have on the armor of God.

Ephesians 6:13-17 (KJV)
"Wherefore take unto you the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to withstand in the evil day, and having done all, to stand. Stand therefore, having your loins girt about with truth, and having on the breastplate of righteousness; and your feet shod with the preparation of the gospel of peace; above all, taking the shield of faith, wherewith ye shall be able to quench all the fiery darts of the wicked. And take the helmet of salvation, and the sword of the Spirit, which is the word of God:"

Now what a lot of Christians do is they let down their shield of faith, which is why the darts tend to wipe you out quickly and a lot of Christians look like they lose their battles. It is the hardest part to keep up because the situation looks hard . . . we see darts coming from here, coming from there, coming from everywhere and our mind and emotions are FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!

We could be in that ring because of ourselves and our stupidity or we could just have been attacked because Satan is mad and wants to distract & discourage us from the blessing that is coming our way or try to get us to go his way and be on his side of the ring . . . where we still get beat up. Lastly we may be in that ring . . . because Satan just hates us . . . that would be the only reason he would need to attack.

Now we could be in a position where we might be in the ring because:
1. We were stupid and made so many mistakes that we deserve serious consequences
2. We are being attacked because of the various reason Satan does what he does

This is the hard part; both reasons . . . because now we have to go repent of what we did and ask for deliverance from that, and get deliverance from everything else. This is where that shield comes back into play. It's really hard to hold that shield of faith up when you feel guilty and know you deserve to go through what you are going through. It's hard when you see a black hole for your mess and you feel like you are being sucked into and being stretched all out of proportion. And this isn't including the other attacks!

We are in a war ladies and gentlemen. A full out war; and we have to fight everyday. I feel I am fighting for my sanity as we speak. It's like my mind wants to go so far off to the deep end that in years down the line I'd be institutionalized talking to myself and wondering who I am. Satan will go after your mind and emotions because that's the connection to your spirit . . . if you let your mind and emotions rule you . . . it will be the worst roller coaster ride of your life.

But as Christians we don't have to fight in the war by ourselves. We don't have to stand in that ring along. Jesus has His gloves up; on the battlefield it would be a sword . . . the Word of God! And nothing can stand against the Word. Satan has to back off! As long as we keep speaking the Word over ourselves and keep that shield up no matter what he said, she said, he did, she did, you or I did . . . we will overcome!

Gloves up!

A Free Spirit

I am very free spirited. I've always known this. I never really had to deal with the cons of it until now. I tend to sometimes hold serious things off until I get in trouble. The good thing is I tend to be very relaxed in some situations. My thoughts run freely, which is good because I'm always thinking of scenarios and possible movie ideas in my dreams (I daydream almost as constantly as I breath) but I tend to be all over the place a lot of the time. Sigh . . . those are some of my issues I have to master.

Along with this type of personality I am a dreamer . . . I feel I have a beautiful mind. (Hence the name of this blog and also the title of one of my favorite movies) I know a lot of people say that but I really feel I utilize both sides of my brain. I think analytical and I also think very creatively. I wonder how this will affect me in the film industry . . . blah . . . look out!

More from the night

Ok, finally more on Oscar Night. Like I said before the night was very theatrical. It was like they were on a stage while presenting the Oscars. Of course we know they were using a literal stage, but it was more like a set up on Broadway. It was very nice. I have so many movies that I really need to see. I haven't seen Slumdog Millionaire yet and that got the most love out the night. If they would've had phenominal actors and actresses I'm sure they would've had the top 5 (best picture, best director, best actor, best actress, best writing). They had the top three even though not there is a difference in writing; original screenply and adapted screenplay are put into separate categories.

One day I will be there. I may be 23 already and seem too old (only in my eyes really), but I'll hold my many Oscars. And I'll give God thanks and praise first and foremost because that has clearly not been said by anyone for years. And I don't care what they'll think about me. Actors/Directors/Producers used to acknowledge who gave them air to breathe and the mind to pull of the beautiful extraordinary work that they do but I guess since they've seen a reduce in movie attendance, they have given up. Art is so important. Film is an art form, that expresses beauty. One that I am so excited to be apart of. I am just going to keep moving forward and keep my eyes on God so I don't fall.

So I just watched 'The Reader'. I do notice a lot of non-American films show nudity like it's nothing, because they don't show it so you can lust, they show it as 'oh these people had an affair and this is what theirs looked like and how it affected them.' So I'm not promoting this movie due to that fact but I will say this; it is a movie where it sparks a lot of discussion. A lot of key points in the movie in the scenes where they laid in bed after they made love so you those were kind of needed at the main focus of the movie. It did leave me with a feeling of deep sadness. I won't give away what happened, but it was sad. Good, but sad.

So now I'm going to go listen to some happy Slumdog Millionaire music (the song Jai Ho is really good) and imagine I'm flying in the sky. . . yes I do believe that humans will fly and not in planes. Wheter with jets or special shoes, we'll fly and dance in the sky . . .

Oscar Night

1. I finally have a job! God is so good. He set everything up and blessed me over and abundantly what I asked.

2. I just watched the Academy Awards. I am in awe at the depth of storytelling, acting, and everything that goes into filmmaking. I haven't even tasted the depth of what they are doing. I will one day get there. With the Lord's guidance I will get there. I am floored. I am actually near tears. They did such a great job. The whole show was a step above what they have done in the past. I was proud. And imagining myself win multiple (yes I said multiple) awards. It's about time the wealth of the wicked was passed onto the righteous!

I'll write more on this later. I have to get to bed for my first day of work!

Job

I'm trying to keep up with this blog . . . I really am. Sometimes I'm just way too tired to write.

Well I have a job interview tomorrow (well technically today) and I am super excited for it. If this is from God I know it is going to go wonderful and I'll start my journey to get out of debt . . . I want my net worth to be positive. So meaning, no debt whatsoever. I know God wants it that way too. It says in His word, owe no man anything. And that's how I plan to be. :-)

Ok I'm off to bed. Big day!

Randoms

My hair is growing, growing, and growing some more. It still looks short but it's longer than what it used to be. I went natural months back. About two weeks ago I cut the very last bit of relaxer out of my hair . . . now it's just me and my natural flow. Of course I still straighten it, I don't wanna rock the fro, but there are no chemicals or dye in my hair. Yeah!!! Just like I wanted it. Now I just have to get it past my shoulders . . . that's the next boulder. I truly love myself with long hair. It fits my facial bone structure. I would def. rock it short if I felt I would love it . . . but I don't. I just love it on others. Well enough vain talking . . .

I miss my planner . . . that thing kept me more organized than I realized. Now I have papers and files everywhere. Even though it's filed . . . don't mistake that I know everything that's in it.

I'm going to change up my style . . . well not really; just enhance it and make it look more glamorous. No more stepping out the house any type of way.