A Year Strong

Hello world,

Today is my birthday!!! I am a year old in the illustrious sorority Alpha Kappa Alpha Sorority, Incorporated. It has been an emotional, wonderful, growing, learning, and powerful year. Through everything, I love who I have become and I love my line sisters like no other. I have the best. Period.

I'm so excited . . .

Success nuggets

Hello world,


Here are some more points from The Magic of Thinking Big . . .

• Be environment-conscious. Just as body diet makes the body, mind diet makes the mind.
• Make your environment work for you, not against you. Don't let suppressive forces - the negative, you-can't-do-it-people - make you think defeat.
• Don't let small-thinking people hold you back. Jealous people want to see you stumble. Don't give them that satisfaction.
• Get your advice from successful people. Your future is important. Never risk it with free-lance advisors who are living failures.
• Get plenty of psychological sunshine. Circulate in new groups. Discover new and stimulating things to do.
• Throw thought-poison out of your environment. Avoid gossip. Talk about people but stay on the positive side.
• Go first class in everything you do. You can't afford to go any other way.
• Grow the "I'm activated" attitude. Results come in proportion to enthusiasm invested. Three things to do to activate yourself are:

1. Dig into it deeper. When you find yourself disinterested in something, dig in and learn more about it. This sets off enthusiasm.
2. Life up everything about you: your smile, your handshake, your talk, even your walk. Act alive.
3. Broadcast good news. No one ever accomplished anything positive telling bad news.

• Grow the "You are important" attitude. People do more for you when you make them feel important. Remember to do these things:

1. Show appreciation at every opportunity. Make people feel important.
2. Call people by name.

• Grow the "Service first" attitude, and watch money take care of itself. Make it a rule in everything you do, give people more than they expect to get.

If you want to me to go into more detail about it, well you'll have to buy the book for yourself. If you apply the principles, it's life changing. All you have to do is read it for about 15 min a day and it will do wonders. My race of people could really use help from reading these types of books. They stick all this knowledge in books and we don't like to read . . . shame . . .


Goodbye world

Today Would Be A Day . . .

Today would be a day for crying and screaming . . . but since my eyes tend to be dried up these past few years due to my role of helping everybody else with their emotional issues and forgetting about mine, it seems I'm past crying these days. I guess it's ok. I don't like to cry anyways. It is quite an emotional drain.

The circumstances still look bleak . . . so now I have to stretch my faith . . . what does it look like versus what God said about me. Well God never lies so the situation is lying which means I'll be speaking a lot to it these next few days.

I love business minded people. They just lift my soul. I heard something halarious on a show called "Who wants to work for Diddy?" This one person said to Diddy, "You have a dream and I want to help make that dream come true." Now I found this funny because they are fighting to fight for someone else's dream, but what about their own dream? That is being poor minded. Yes jobs are good to get you started but I definitely don't plan to stay at one my whole life. I have a business on the side, and once it takes off I'm retiring. I'm an independent business owner which means if I take a vacation for a month and don't touch my business, it still builds without me being there. That's a real business owner, if someone has to be there for it to carry on, that means you are self employed. Quite a difference.

I want to get away, a place where no one is. I want to just get away, get a hotel, take some long beautiful walks beneath the trees, and dream . . . Today would be a good day for that.

Walking Alone

I look up, and no one is around me . . . I look side to side and it's total blackness.

Family, Friends . . . gone . . . what's left, is a tidbit of light.

How can I make it to the light when no one is with me?

I yell, "JESUS!!!!!!!!!!" . . . silence

The dream, stretches far away . . . if I could only grasp that dream. If I could only be near it one day.

The journey; is hard. I have already hurt myself along the way.

"JESUS!!!!!!!!!!!!" . . . it is still silent as the grave

When is help going to come? I feel so alone! My people so near betrayed me.

But I hear something . . . someone's footsteps . . . a strong hand grabs mine.

Someone is leading me through this valley, this stench hole, this abomination.

The light they give off is so strong, so I close my eyes for I have been living in total darkness.

Soon I open, one . . . then the other . . . and before me stands a man, a man whose face shines . . .

"Why Jesus!? Why didn't you answer when I called?"

"I did answer you my child, I came and delivered you, I heard the first time when you called. You were never alone; you chose to go by yourself and didn't want my help; but I am always with you"

We reached the end of the valley, the end of the darkness, the end of the struggle.

"Jesus, let's walk together forever. I don't like walking alone"

Jesus looks down on me gently, and smiles . . .

Tidbits of Things

I've been doing better everyday with what I am supposed to be doing. I get up every morning and read my Bible, do my confession, and read my success books. The one thing I need to work on is prayer. I don't know why I struggle with that. It's not like I don't want to talk to God and it's not like I don't think He hears me, because I know even when I don't think He's listening He is . . . I think I just need to make it a habit. A serious habit! I've got so many things to pray about: ministry, film, business, more schooling, a job . . . I could go on and on. I guess this is why the Lord says pray continuously.

I've started reading Pilgrim's Progress . . . I don't know how I'm going to make this into a movie. After reading, I plan to make a script and then come up with storyboards on how I want different scenes to look. I'm not much of an artist so it will be quite a learning experience. I have to imagine what I think is a great and wonderful movie and create it!

Here is something wonderful I learned in one of my success books today: The Magic of Thinking Big. This is in the chapter entitled: You Are What You Think You Are. They had a checklist for what someone with an important mindset thinks about and what most people think about. Since I want to be (well am) important, I want to think how an important person thinks. Here is teh checklist:

Situation: When I worry
Ask Yourself: Would an important person worry about this?
Situation: An idea
Ask Yourself: Would the most successful person I know be disturbed about this?
Situation: My appearance
Ask Yourself: Do I look like someone who has maximum self-respect?
Situation: My language
Ask Yourself: Am I using the language of successful people?
Situaiton: What I read
Ask Yourself: Would an important person read this?
Situation: Conversation
Ask Yourself: Is this something successful people would discuss
Situation: When I lose my temper
Ask Yourself: Would an important person get mad at what I'm mad about?
Situation: My jokes
Ask Yourself: Is this the kind of joke an important person would tell?
Situation: My job
Ask Yourself: HOw does an important person describe his job to others?

This book is filled with wonderful tips and keys for those who want to be successful in life and who want to go against the grain, and flow upstream instead of down like everyone else. Pick it up and read it . . . and APPLY IT!!!! Most people don't apply when they read books on success, including the Bible which tells you how to be successful; and people wonder why they are still in the slumps . . . well anyways, I won't preach in this entry . . . I'm off to read/relax.