"Love me like you'll never see me again"

Below, are the thoughts of a girl who is talking to her friends about how she feels how they treat her.

I know you perfer that I be a certain way all the time. I know you perfer that I am all the time happy. I know that you would rather me be always doing things with you that will cause me to struggle. How come I am always there for you and you are never there for me? Where are you to stay up at night with me when I need someone? How come you go to sleep on me or get cranky when I call? How come you always exclude me and go off into your little bubbles, it makes me want to not even stick around . . . it makes me want to leave and just forget about it. But, I won't do that; because I love you. You are my friends, and even though you sometimes don't realize that you hurt me a lot, that's ok. I forgive you. And will keep forgiving you.

I just hope you realize, that one day I might not always be here. Maybe you'll do better without me. Maybe you won't miss me or will be joyous that I'm gone. I just hope if I do decide to walk off, that you'll know you should have "loved me, like you'll never see me again."