Between a Rock and a Hard Place

Random question to myself today . . . If I could be anywhere or be anyone today who and where would I be?

Answer: I'd be a successful business woman/stay at home wife married to a billionaire (I'd be making money from my businesses so I would not be a golddigger) and I'd have a huge production company and be a film star and producer.

Second question to myself . . . Why not?

Answer: again . . . why not?

I feel released to step out and do something things as far as my passion goes. So I will finally have some fun outside of my job. All I do these days is go to work, work out, go to sleep . . . and wake up and do it all over again. The working out keeps endorphins high and keeps me 'somewhat' fit (since I still don't eat right all the time) but it does make me look at my frame all the time. Some days you cannot tell me a thing because I think I am just too cute, and I have to watch it that I don't get vain. Other days I feel like a stick figure w/ my curvy butt but suuuuuper skinny arms and flat chest. Who gets two random different figures on top and bottom?!?!? God must be condoning me having larger boobs (hehehehe)

But anyways, I wanna spread my wings and touch the sky with R. Kelly. I really want my own place. Not a house yet, but a nice sized apartment . . . by myself. So I can kinda do my own thing. But first my income needs to reflect that. It makes me want to work harder so that I can afford to go off and find a place. Sigh . . . patience is a virtue.

I have church tonight, which I am so thankful for. That's my refill during the middle of the week. I love going to church. I don't have very many friends there yet but I know that will come. Alright, I'm off to get this word!