Distint Mind

I don't think I should have watched that movie yesterday. Now my mind is all over the place. I have to spend the rest of the night getting myself back in order and out of this depressing love-sickness. The 'Time Traveler's Wife' had a very sad ending so if you open up your emotions, it will definitely take you there. This makes falling in love look not so glamorous. Especially since I've never been in love before. (Except with the Lord of course) The soundtrack for the movie is beautiful. These modern day artists are really romantic.

Beethoven, Hayden, and Mozart were romantic but in a very dramatic and glorious adventurous type of way. Well I guess the modern might be a lot better because they are with the times. They know how to take it past just piano and violin and use all parts of the orchestra to feel a story. Wait . . . there's the difference, the modern classical music for movies is feeling a story and moving with emotions. That's why it hits so different.

I love when the movie takes me away to a place peaceful serene. It's always a huge field w/ tall grass and a clear beautiful warm sky. It might be near my house, a huge mansion. I may be alone, I may not be. From there I travel to other places. But I don't stay long, I must live out my own life instead of dreaming of having one. And you understand why I say I have a beautiful mind.

Wait till it gets put to the test and I put my ideas on film. What stories will be told. . . .I'm not even ready for them. I wonder if I'll be a good actress. I hope so. I know I wanna be like Rachel McAdams and put my heart and soul on the screen. But I have standards, no clothes will come off, no groping, nothing dirty. No swearing.

So back to this classical music. It actually made me feel better. And I was feeling so very off from everything. The movie and my own emotions with this person I have no business even considering. I don't even like him. We are complete opposites and he is just 'there'. I think I'm bored. So I need to find something to do, and get involved in church. That will definitely solve my idle mind and time.